MS51 was very very scary when I first arrived. I knew no one. I was terrified, there aren't enough
scary words in the word or in any language to describe how scared I was. That is no exaggeration. So 6th grade was very scary but I began to open up, I couldn't have one friend forever. So I made some friends, and I became close with them, I still felt like a kid though I didn't feel like I was getting older. I was but not mentaly, I still felt innocent and kid like.
Seventh grade was better. It was alot of stress though. I was thrilled to be in 7th grade, but also very scared. It was alot of stress. This was THE year the year that would get me into the high school I want or the high school I really don't want. I had my heart set on beacon just like everyone else.I thought I had a real chance of going. I tried keeping up all my grades, but school was hard and i only got a 89 average. I did so much work wrote all essays and I thought I nailed the interview. But it wasn't enough. I came to terms with myself. I knew I wasn't gonna get in, and I felt like an adult, I was okay with it, I was happy and excited to go to any school I got into. Nothing was set in stone but I was okay.
Eight grade was when I really started to feel like an adult I offically wasn't a kid anymore. At first I hated it. Being older isn't fun, it isn't easy. I had a whole new list of responsibilities. You know when your a kid and all you wanna do when your older all you wanna do is be a kid. I know exactly what it means. When your a kid you are so carefree and naive, when your adult you see the world in a different view. I know now I finally am growing up. I am not a kid. I accepted that I didn't get into Beacon and I am happy to go to Midwood I hope I countinue to grow in a good way.
